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When a girl open her heart for a boy. Part2

2010-06-07T02:46:00.001-07:00

It is more than enough to be his backbone. Always be there for him. He cried, he whined and he sulked but still she manage to hold on.

she tried to move on, no she can't she is still in love with him. She tried to forget him, be with someone else.

yes, she can love him but not as much as she used to love the boy.

now, she knows that piece of her heart is gone somewhere with the boy. Healed or cured, is a matter of time.

When a girl open her heart for a boy. Part1

2010-06-07T02:35:00.001-07:00

So, this is a story about a girl who believes in a eternal love. Pristine. One this world for everyone.

she fell in love with a guy, she never told him, she just show it by taking care of him. She wanted him to be happy.

one day, the boy tells her that he's in love with a girl. She is happy for him. She couldn't say anything more as she convince that the girl is the one for him.

months passed, they're still together. She keeps on waiting. Loving someone not neccessarily to be together.

Khamis,31st. >the end of december and year 2010<

2010-01-01T03:33:00.000-08:00

I went to SMTM with my siblings to deal with urusan sekolah durg.then, i went to tutg dgni si bebeh ku bli brg skulah. Practice kana cancel,last last minute ah.Ptg i went to katok arah nini ada bbq then ke mentiri arah ka wani! Nyum nyum,bnyk mkn ku mlm ah. After tht kami decide tdur d rimba. si alviss show me msg g lg. Kesian you daddeyh! Goodbye 2009,im gonna change.

Rabu,30th.

2010-01-01T03:22:00.001-08:00

I have show arh rumah uncle hj kifli. pg. Then ptg rush to DDG lagi. Preview for musical lela menchanai 2010. Ka alai and abg khai were great. Mlm,kami ke gdg. Im not going to say it was boring tp inda brapa fun. Idk why.

Selasa,29th.

2010-01-01T02:58:00.000-08:00

i went blatih mcm biasa d DDG pg to ptg. =) kami planning kn ke gdg plg tp nda jd. So kami ke huaho tutg sja. I bought brg for show on the next day.

Isnin,28th.

2010-01-01T02:55:00.000-08:00

Nazrii mastani's birthday. kami blatih pg d indoor and ptg to DDG mcm biasa. =)

Ahad,27th.

2010-01-01T02:49:00.000-08:00

I attend Chamed wedding celebration d dewan bomba. She dressed perfectly. Lawa brabis, nasha aziz gitu!

Sabtu,26th.

2010-01-01T02:45:00.000-08:00

si aqeech bebeh ku practice. tinggal aku sama adik adik ku saja dirumah. si alviss curhat pasal cintanya. Pity him,bemasalah. Hope smua will change. I lost my mood.

Jumaat,25th

2009-12-26T02:10:00.000-08:00

Happy friday fellas! Okay, aku busy dri pg ane wah. Much things to do, from kitchen to outside. aku aher ckit siap mlm tu, kita rasta mlm tu. Inda lg bnyk tu ku ampit bekaraoke. mental2 lagi. ada th tu pasalnya. aku inda mkn from lunch sampai ku tdur ah. whatever. Shit happens.
Selamat Pengantin Baru to CHAMED, forever love you both!

khamis,24th

2009-12-26T02:05:00.000-08:00

we went to port d muara bcause ada tourists dtg from Costa Classica. Then zoom tarus ke indoor sampai ptg. No practice mlmnya. mlm jumat x ah. =) aku blik dlm pkul 8 sampai rumah ah. Seriously i need rest! Gotta be prepare untuk the next day! Busy ne!Guarantee! and aku btagur dh sma ia. I miss him,i want him to know this.

Rabu,23th

2009-12-24T02:52:00.000-08:00

I went to practice d indoor mcm biasa. balik mcm biasa dlm pkul 12. Letih much bebeh, bilik g mcm kapal karam. Haa~ alum g teusai. Baju g bnyk besasah. Padih eh. and first tah ne aku kasar sma ia* yknow who. and aku inda o9 smpai mlm. Gila baie,tahan iman ku bh. aher jua la ku tdur ah,apa kn jd,jd lah. =)

selasa,22th

2009-12-22T16:18:00.000-08:00

It was mira lht's and faiz's birthday. =) i had my practice d DDG,KKBS. Nothing much happened. After practice i went to sleep tarus. Dalam kerita,sampai rumah pun tidur.I skip my meals. I woke up dlm 9.30 pastu go o9 skajap. Dlm 11.30 aku tdur lg smpai pg. =) haa.

A week.

2009-12-21T16:14:00.000-08:00

Nothing much going on actually. we had practice drumah on the 15,16,18 and 19.
17th,mumy balik kerumah. kami smua gather di rumah. I cry much msa ari atu,mls ku mention knapa.
20th,kami nada blatih apa2. I went to Katok arh grandpa,smua kami siblings pkai new stuff yg kna blikan dBangkok ah. =) udah blik ah,kepisan eh. Inda beumpama wah. Ampai2.
21th, we went to kkbs. Blatih sna. Aku mau ke gadong!

13hb

2009-12-14T10:19:00.000-08:00

I stayed at home sampai ptg. Musics from pg to ptg. All genre ku antam. Haha, anyway, i went to tua hamdan's ada bday party. Main bouncer and karaoke. =D mls ku pnjg lebar kn bceta ah,ngantuk bnr ku. Haha,skalor. tp tatap aku sayang si dia even ia nda tau. Hee. Also aku saw mrs! Aku nda ska ia lagi! Haha,majal eh!

dec 14

2009-12-14T10:12:00.001-08:00

Semua skali mcm biasa sja. dr pg to mlm. Hujan wh time mlm ah, <3 aku totally cinta sma gerimis. Hee. Babu and babah blik today. aku tdur plg sdah tu,tp kna banguni.Haha, stuffs kna distribute. All of us ampit brg lah. =D
:2 new bags
:2 new skinny
:4 new tees
:accesories
:a shade
:a wallet
:a new pair of sneakers
:a new pair of pant
:a sleveless and short
:a new watch
:pink and black, pink,yellow and black *B and U
and more!*aku nda ingat lagi.
Fyi, keychain yg ku blik dJapan msa tu putus ah =s aku sayang tu!
Ami make a change on his hair. Sampat g kami lepak rh restaurant ah. Gila baie! Si masen kna ampai dlm pasu,wajar kh itu? Haha,over! Aku takut ia dirty wah!

Worst.

2009-12-13T01:11:00.000-08:00

I went to rimba arah my ngangah from pagi to ptg and gathering sama my sepupu. I miss them. then mlmnya i went to ka amy,mkn2 and karaoke. It was nice bnrnya,then something happen. Down ku tarus! Blik rumah tarus dlm bilik dgr lagu jiwang2. I cried, i called aqilah bazelle and curhat sma ia. Kul 4 lbih bru tdur. I chat sma abg and kim durg pun nda dpt cheer me up. Hell jua tu.

12.12.2009

2009-12-13T01:04:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday,my bebeh hada and xavz! I <3 kamu!
I woke up mcm biasa, tp it was my bad day. My shampoo kna pkai and everything goes wrong! Kusut ku! Him,mcm biasa lah. =s

gee hari ini.

2009-12-11T16:24:00.000-08:00

Its been a while ppl, so here i am. doing fine with lots of going on. exams were over, dance begins, and i have a new crush. Unfornately he likes the other girl. Why this thing keeps happening huh? The good thing is, im not obsessed with MRS anymore. weird much right? And i was in Japan until 6th of dec,shows. Qilah is faress iqbal's and im no one. Haha. =D

This is it, wednesday.

2009-10-21T08:07:00.000-07:00

the exam was ok but very tiring. and idk why,i felt so miserable tonight i cant concentrate anything in front of. It is like,why they have to nag on me.Stop changing me, stop preventing me from living the life i want to live. Take a break people,lemme do my thang!
topic for tonight,what people do when they're down? me,i stress out of myself. I don't know what to do with it.Dang it! How bout you? (x

Tuesday

2009-10-20T08:10:00.001-07:00

twas like over two weeks aku nda update this blog. and yeah,fyi things mcm biasa sja. I did revision,everyday. Pg,ptg,mlm. nda pandai langu.Haha. UPDATES! I bought myself a new colourful beaded bracelet and glass with pink frame. Aku totally cinta it.
I can't sleep tonight,further more, esuk aku exam. Hist and eng. Nervous x,thinking about future ahead. Which is i should. For english,i tend to read on newspaper and magazine. Banyak issue dude. So,aku dpt elaborate topics given isuk. Great kn?
Topics for tonight, bila sang pujangga meluluhkan hati. Aku dpt topic ane after seeing my own cousin,sobbing over his man.I mean,this girl is fragile! Uhh,idk. Come on,lets think. A relationship need,trust and faith. Susah wh,nda trust each other ne. Blaming on one another,then fire burning. Uuw~ hot! 995. Next,after sasak2 udah.Selingkuh!Astee. Abis lh f kenapatan. So,you guys dpt point from all the stuff yg ku spill ane? Hope so.
Till then,im off to bed!

thursday and friday

2009-10-02T08:03:00.000-07:00

nothing much going on except for doing hw and revision. I tried my best not to think about him so that i could focus. I was so happy for my sis. She was proposed,i want her to say yes. about me,over 7 months.I'll dying to survive. *sleep.I want to.

scholastic books, 3rd

2009-09-30T06:55:00.001-07:00

today, books from scholastic can be collected at Mr Bayer.Unfortunately for us, wuthering heights is not available,so in return the just give a book as a gift and a voucher,worth of $12.50 BND. So far,i read until the chapter 2 of the angel cake and i know it will be great. It is five minutes to ten,i should go to sleep now. I am sleepy and hungry. I am so in my diet program or what we called as eating disorder. should i proceed? And yeah,i want to do 20 sit ups,so that my stomach maintain its shape.I don't want any fats silting on my belly. HAHA! Eeew,that is so disgusting. Before i forget,i decided to stay focus and no boys should get in my way. *i hope so! I am not going to get over him easily. I knew it all along. Until then. take a deep breath and start your sit up,haha. wth.

2nd day

2009-09-30T06:09:00.001-07:00

It is uncle muhd's birthday! Happy birthday uncle, we are glad to have you as our uncle. We set off our speakers outside and went karaoke. Daddy took off to singapore. and called me at noon. My mood gone, because i miss him, MRS.

school,the first day.

2009-09-29T08:05:00.001-07:00

i woke up earlier than what i set on the alarm *thumbs up! my whole 5 period was empty because my teacher didnt come.I came home after i finished my extra class, at 5. Blackout, seven thirty to nine. I spent my time watching a dvd,thread of destiny. It is a japanese movie. I cried. again,i cried because of MRS! He wrote my cinta NAS on his custom message. I love you bah! Idk what to do to make you trust me.

the seventh day of eid,the first week of syawal.

2009-09-27T07:20:00.001-07:00

today is the final day of the holiday of third term,so i went out and go hit houses. I went to anjeh,nini angah,nini lubok meranti,KB and lastly to uncle gap. various type of food stored in the stomach. again,my diet program doesnt worked out. xs
and yeah, 12.43 am qawy called me. thanks beh! you are so unpredictable.
Guess what,i had a stomachache. Ouch!

the sixth day of eid

2009-09-27T06:29:00.001-07:00

today,i went to ka ct's openhouse. the food is extremely DELICIOUS!Haha,banar! I ate the nasi ayam and the rojak as the second trip but hey i was in my diet program wah! It doesnt work,useless! MRS,was not there. Imy MRS x)

the fifth day of eid

2009-09-27T06:09:00.000-07:00

i woke up early today,because we organise openhouse,which exactly started after one pm. many people came and thank god we hire two helper to help us wash all the dishes which piled up higher and high! X) Unfortunately,MRS didnt came which dissapoint me. Ajis make him came and me,ajis and MRS meet.I love you MRS* i couldnt believe how many times i said it but i mean it.

the fourth day of eid!

2009-09-27T06:03:00.000-07:00

the fourth day of eid, i went to babah of lambak and si yon.Nothing much,raya is such a busy day. true,matterfact,i havent start any of my revisions. and exam is on the corner. what do they expect me to be? A robot? stop fucking up my life. HAHA! Kidding!

Third day of eid

2009-09-23T17:47:00.000-07:00

to start off,i woke up early and dressed up like usual days.eventually,my relatives came and i changed my clothes. No make ups.I look SUCKS! Yes,its true. So we went to nini amits,mumy,ryah,tee and tua.I want to go to my wintery sister but some of them were not home. I watched im not single on 104. I watched it for a few times but i still found it romantic. I cant help it,i adore farid kamil. xp

MRS

2009-09-23T17:10:00.000-07:00

I was just checking on my fs account. Then i went to MRS's. Obviously,he is still in love with NAS. Wtf, could you open your eyes and see clearly. I were there from the beginning.standing there. Hoping you could feel the same which i cant define. boy,you should be mine.I promise,you will be happy because i know i can love you like no one.I love you MRS.

The second day of eid.

2009-09-22T09:09:00.001-07:00

the second day of eid begin as usual. wake up at eight and go to the toilet straightly. I am whining.I want to wake up late but i cant. fuhh. I watch fantasi ria which featured my cousins as back up dancers. As well as sindir2 sayang,lively dancers is on tv. We went beraya after maghrib to muya's,uncle and aunt.

selamat hari raya aidilfitri.

2009-09-22T08:58:00.001-07:00

First of all,selamat hari raya aidilfitri to all my dear friend.Forgive all my wrongdoings.im wearing my pink and black outfit. we went to grandpa. people flood our home. I am tired. i was still given angpau by some of my relative. THANKS! and at night MRS went to my house with my friends. they tease me and tried to match me with him. damn, they knew i like him. Is it obvious?Or it was written on my face that i like him?It is useless,eventhough that i like him, he is still in love with his ex. NAS. She is so lucky.He sparks up my life. I wish you were mine.I knew god heard my prayer every night.Make it came true,x) would you please?

the ninth - part two

2009-09-22T08:33:00.001-07:00

my raya preparation was quite much compared to my previous years. five colourful new baju kurung,three new shoes,accessories,and lots more.I sleepover at mums thursday to saturday.Tuesday to thursday i had extra classes that i MUST attend. Alai hj metamit,thanks for the good times. I will be staying at your house next holiday.Insya allah. x)

the ninth.

2009-09-21T09:39:00.000-07:00

it was ramadan and im absolutely thinking of foods,foods and foods. wth im thinking!I dont want to puffs up in the eid. I did many outings though. To stalls and shops. currently i was thinking about sushi. Oh,california maki.

the ninth part two would be continued.

finally,

2009-08-17T10:50:00.000-07:00

i was on the phone td with qawy. x) i miss him,finally dpt dgr suaranya after all of my plan kn btpun postpone sja.*yawn,it is almost 2 AM. I wish i have much credit to be used for him.I love you,qawy.

I am.

2009-07-25T08:53:00.000-07:00

Im scared of examinations.
Im not so good in physics.
Im wasted,twice.
Im a chocolate lover.
Im torn.

random

2009-07-25T08:51:00.001-07:00

Ok ok,lets get straight to the point.Idk what to put in here.So,i just wrote craps and oh wth.im bored.now,at rumah my aunt ada function sna.tomorow,practice lg. Life is so tiring.I cant just ignore it.It was just like a pain on the butt *sakit jua tu,nda ja?Bh,bh,enuf enuf ckp nonsense ane.Aite,hapy bday to halim,my ex clasmate.wee~

Tujohbilas

2009-07-20T07:17:00.002-07:00

first of all,im seventen udah.thanks to god.And the most exciting thing is,im alone without a bf this year.my birthday wish,lets just keep it as a secret.Reviews,what happen to me for the past days were no sensation.Thanks to those yg bg greeting msa tu.I want si piepie back.first crush of mine.I know i will always love him,eventho he acts neutral.damn it.And ada one of my busmate ckp aku lanji.Who's that?Backstabber!You'll be revealed.Soon.

Tujohbilas

2009-07-20T07:17:00.001-07:00

C R A P

2009-07-09T02:34:00.000-07:00

Holy crap,i was told that exam on saturday would be on but im not ready.Next month,qualifying month.This is killing me.the real thing is im scared of examination.I could feel something choking me from distance.Oh~ that must be my own soul reminding me to study,study and STUDY.

weeks

2009-07-09T02:33:00.001-07:00

Almost two weeks i didnt sign in on my blog.school should be reopened on monday,28 june but it turns out the school start on 6 july. day 1 ,i was surprised to see: *students queue up in front of the gate *teachers wearing masks and held something that look like a gun *put sticker on our tudung.(you are officialy healthy baby!) and and i still collect the stickers with date printed on it.

dying to impress

2009-06-27T18:20:00.000-07:00

I met this guy at a function in kb.He's good-looking and not jobless.I adore him at the moment he ask for my no.Now,i think he is not that into me and im dying,trying every way just to impress him but still,he act neutral.What do you think i am?A robot?What should i do? gee,wake up!Nobody interested with you!Go bck to your own world.I MISS HIM SO MUCH.

full house

2009-06-27T18:16:00.000-07:00

Yday,I went to my mummy's house at lumapas and sleepover di sana.Play games,watch tv and ddr.Eat eat and sleep,simple.And today is the day i want to die.I wish i could.

Activities

2009-06-25T21:23:00.000-07:00

Nothing much i done for this several days except for attending my xtra class which is so tiring,preview on brsama rakyat.Yday,i went to gdg with my cuzies and my mumy.Playing ddr all along*what i can i say,i love to dance. I met si ryah,my wintery.I miss wintery a lot.and today i think,i'll just stay home.

and the story goes..

2009-06-22T13:23:00.001-07:00

it's been so long that i didnt update my blog.my last post was on 27 march (see?now is JUNE.)the good thing is i am still alive and the bad thing is idk where to start.nvm then,lets just say i am still the same(with different haircut).i let go of my bumbums(you know who you are) and i hope he's hapy now.I know i'll always love him.Readers,i'll try to update more next time.

WACUTEDIN

2009-03-27T01:32:00.000-07:00

HB darling. aku mau pinch kau ne f aku blik dah ke tutg.wait for me dude.

momasita

2009-03-27T01:21:00.000-07:00

on 25th msa tu i went to mum.sleepover di ana until saturday then pagi atu i have to blek to tutg lagi.getting prepare, back to school aka school reopen (sama jua tu ertinya kn) dude.

26th - hb lunak que.
jgn kamu~~ lunak beracun ne mun ia ketawa.pacah jah kau ah.semoga makin lunak dan lunak. antah-nada-lagi-idea-ku-ne-mati-udah-utak-ku-adang-tah-over~~~

we went to mall , aku;sary,huney,qemah,damit,panjang,apes,titahh,sufi,rashid,pian,amz. inda menjadi yoo kami kn mliat wyg atu. next time ja ah. gmbrnya nanti th ku curi dari sary nanti and liat ja rah facebook ah.geyla~ both of our couples klaie msa tu apes with pnjg, titahh and sary .apa nak jadi?? plus i met my student time national day oh.remember me always ah especially my faces when aku triak2 5,6,7,8 and and 'slanting!!' FYI ,aku sayang kamu semua k...
during msa tu i met my couisin jua, the 3nuruls,farah,nanu,amal and fatin.mengancam kamu mlm atu ah.. see kamu nanti lagi f ada function di rumah aite.

hari esoknya

2009-03-27T01:18:00.000-07:00

as i wish. esoknya aku ok dah.dapat dah lumpat2 mcm biasa.nda g kajar2 and what so ever.i'm healing bebeh.mcm phm sja bh uncle ah,aku dissapointed nda dpt menyanyi di mlm,mlm atu ia set off his speaker keluar, itu bermakna ada karaoke di mlm itu. yeah, i sang about two or three songs.thanks oh uncle me.

after two days yang itu.

2009-03-27T01:09:00.000-07:00

yah, guess what happen. lapas aku skulah.again deq zar bwa jln lagi.i have nothing to do patang atu.so, i said yes.so kami berlima *aku,qeel,mieya,deq zar, ami chaa went to tutg lah.mcm biasa sja location kami.then aku nda tantu rasa, kata urg tua nda nyaman badan. damam lah tu ertinya.bangang,bepikir jua ku tu.apa paslnya, kata durg maybe sl ketaguran atu x bah.aku pun au-au saja tia. tabak saja tia.janji 'reason' tu ada. udah blik ah,ampai2 eh tidur.damam, cian alai mieya ku jaga aku mlm atu.thanks oh. unfortunately, mlm atu jua jd jamming.kecewa yooooo.nda ku dpt menyanyi mlm atu.durg ne blik2 request aku ma mieya nyanyi lagu doktor cinta,wonder women and bnyk lah.boring eh.

Two days already.

2009-03-23T01:35:00.000-07:00

Hoho,dua ari dh ku nda mkn nasi.Im sure my weight would be between 42 and 40.Haa, nda g ckup tdur tu.Almost everyday i slept late.During dawn.

Hantu dan sebagainya.

2009-03-23T00:10:00.001-07:00

So yeah,mlm atu kami nda jd jamming.Rain all the way.Deq zar asked me to accompany him to minimall.We use the back route.Passing through the back of my house which i considered as 'gelap'.So,he told me stories that he and my cousin encountered a lady.My hair folicle stand straight.*lurus tu kn kmbg bulu?Antam th saja. So,mcm2 lah ia ckp and i was like 'antah kao palui2 ckp mu ah' and so on.Sorry deq ah.He mumbles dri rumah smpai kadai yg ujung ah.The funny thing is,i screamed when i see my shadow.Isn't it pathetic.Bida eh.So time midnight oh,grandma keluar and ikut lepak with us.My nenek rawks!So,the hantu tu bkn rmah kami,my cuzy.Hoho,thank god.Tp ada plg the setan yg kecil2 stil disana,waiting to be eliminate nanti.

Activities

2009-03-21T19:10:00.001-07:00

Nothing much to say about my activity here in tutong.Eat , sleep, lepak , outdoor jamming and karaoke.Hang out di tutong town.Mlmnya kn jamming plg,tp due tu hujan kilat guruh bedentum-dentum basar bunyinya,nda tia jd wh.Ramon sang me a song,once. menghapus jejakmu. today,we are planning kn ke pantai but nda lagi jadi.Hoho,nda apa lah krg mlm jamming sja.Mcm biasa. Next thurs viva and yg lain bwa aku ke mall.Mcm biasag.Meeting each other and updating each other with news.Liat wyg and shopping.Maybe they'll bring their kekasih juga.But me?Sapakan ku bwa?F ada c damit kn bisai.Both of us sama2 single.

Nineteen of march.

2009-03-21T18:34:00.000-07:00

HB Ka dayat and Aqeem

Chipsmore

2009-03-21T18:31:00.001-07:00

I have a large fight with him,chipsmore msa tu. memang salah ku jua but you should remember,u changed me.U did bad things also,u cheated with her to be with me.Pity her,although she used to be my rival.And lucky you she wants to be with you after all what you have done.To her(lets just call her as her *haha,apaan?) she told me 'don't let guy buduh2 kan kau' wait?For me kh tu?Actually it is for you lah!Why?Because you stil want him.You cry for him.You had been in hospital for him.He didn't worth it.You see,f he loves you he won't do things that hurt you. 'DON'T LET GUY MAKES FOOLS ON YOU!!' so goodluck for your on-and-off-which-is-unstable relationship,chipsmore and her.

The very first day.

2009-03-21T18:19:00.001-07:00

I woke up at seven.Have a bath and getting dress.It was my first day at sufri.I was encountered with problems on subject which were offer.No history for sci class.What was i'm going to do? I managed to make new friends. Thanks for the help dude.For sure,memang lain rasanya nada laki2 ane.And yeah i was told to join the test which was on from 3rd of march(idon'tremember,actually)this is gila,i didn't read anything back at home.Don't expect me to give you my best mark,indeed.Most of the topic which came out for the test i haven't covered.So,what im going to write on the paper.I guess,im failing.Shot,matilah aku~ .

New life

2009-03-21T18:02:00.000-07:00

It is been a long i didn't update my blog.Let see,my last update was on 2nd of march.I considered it as long xp. So, third of march si adek ku birthday. si muez,i felt sorry for him, cos he didn't celebrate his bday due to problems.Udah th nda kna celebrate,guess what, his birthday is the day when we moved to tutong.Leaving the bungalow,sister and mum there.I left my heart there with them.I wish we made the choice but,we can't.Oh mum,i will remember everything you said that day.Si muez tarus skulah ptgnya.me??I have a day to rest.

transformation

2009-03-02T04:43:00.000-08:00

hoho,membari watir eh title ah.nvm,so today last th aku study and duduk rh place ku ah.cos esuk i'll return all the books yg ku minjam from the school including the jacket yg if di pkai mcm scientist urg ulehnya.haa,so,lusa i'll transfer to sufri bolkiah secondary school.hope aku still dpat maintain the result time aku still di husain even nda brapa.fuh~~all i know,i'll miss you guys.esp,the five juaras and the form four yg ikut national day this year.and anis,sorry.ptg ane bru ku tliat msg mu ah.next time th kita hang out ah.gpun tkah pun nda jua dpt,tusen ia jah.xpxp,next time th x tu with adul sja.he'll drive kn?hoho,until now alum g ku te post gmbr time di vietnam ah.tp,for sure,kamu semua dpt view arah my site.facebook.an album full of me and the lively's.

i want a getaway

2009-02-26T21:11:00.000-08:00

today,friday we should go out and have some fun right?im craving for a getaway.my time is getting less and less.we,tegaa really need some break so that we could spend our time together for the first time eversince we were in four four.it's like two years.i didn't realize it at first.so,tomorrow is saturday,sister*aqeech asked me to go to mall because there would be lots of coach for national day 2009 would be there.im looking for it.viva texted me 'dalenk,u jln isuk kh?dgni me eh' i want to but i dun know if i could make it.for sure,i'll try my best.until then,i should clear my things.i wish he'll be there,my chipsmore(you have to explain to me everything boy!) oh god,im tired and im craving for a chocolate bar.aite then,got to go now.

jan and feb

2009-02-25T03:18:00.001-08:00

after blik dari vietnam about two or three days,aku start coaching g for national day.the student actually baik,but some of it gauk.nda mau kn mndgr ckp.haa,tp ok jua lah even rebellious.they could do better with more polishing and if durg atu merati and mau mendgr ckp urg.teacher pun kalah bh leh durg.kancang eh student form four intake 2009.so time past us by,and a week before national day aku damam,nda jua cali tu.that is because si boyfriend damam bh.iath touching atu x,ntah lah labu~~i manage to have my mc.tp apanah?sungguh damam ah,turun ku jua ke pdg with the student.ingau ku durg nda dpt deliver yg sebaik mungkin even during practice ja.time sibuk2 nday,sibuk jua kn bsp ah.msa ari rabu ah,mlmnya trus kna transfer step for theme song,bangang jua tu.tp,as a dancer there is no excuse kn?friday,preview,we did bad.bedah liat daming,daming liat kami,kami liat durg,so,sapa th yg kn diliat ane?cuba th,so we practice g,tkar timing masuk,tkar gerak.and yeah,it was a huge success.congrats lively!!

january 2009

2009-02-25T03:01:00.000-08:00

reviews on january,mcm biasa saja.schooling.6th to 11th jan i went to vietnam for cultural performance.the weather msa tu very sajuk gila!!indeed,nda lg pyh pkai aircond.f bgmbr mcm overseas student bh usul kami sorg2.kami nda bnyk shopping due to weather and time.we have to do our practice jua.i manage to buy a jacket and some souveneirs for family in brunei. x). the thing is most of my money be invest di airport saja.mkn,mkn dan mkn.haa.time kami smpai di malaysia ah(transit) lapuk 8 jam ane bh.bangas eh.time blik pun bh,lapuk 3 jam.huhu.we did an excellent performance.kami yg freshmen ane dpt bg surprise to the seniors.they are touched.during mlm2 ah,a night before our show we did some crazy video.featuring ka lah and ka wani as pendekar.abg boy as the bride,abg zye as the diva,abg zef as the pengapit.me and aqeech as the dyg2.haha*mcm apa ko ah jade.also about the slipar,kisah antara aku dan myra.cinderella. xp i miss la thanh hotel!!

flashback

2009-01-16T08:21:00.000-08:00

happy new year fellows,its like batah sudah ku nda update blog ane.mun urg menview pun gerenti langu ne.everytime view post pun stil sama,nda pandai kn be update.reviews on tahun 2008 nda bnyk.aku putus sama ia ujung bulan 12 ah.honestly,aku sayang ia.maybe,dlm masa tdkat ane pun alum ku kn tepikir kn penggantinya.how can i move on,when i'm still in love with him.hee,i know i still cud hold on.aku tau aku kuat.if nda how cud aku dpat hadapi problems on family ku.nda ja?about study taun lapas aku realise result ku makin menurun.and yeah,aku mkin kurus.i miss him,indeed.new years eve taun lapas aku ke kb,buat pesembahan di sana.siuk lah jua mlm atu,especially time part durg si adi.they rocks the night,you whine us up dude.i miss kn klaie2 with kau adi,kita geng 167 aite.*doom.flashback

gee misses them

2008-11-25T03:42:00.000-08:00

so,bru th ku te update ne after batah2 tinggal di anggerek.bru ari ne jua ku blik jerudong.apa dlm fikiran ku msa ne,BLOG,SCHOOL,GRAPH and DDR.can't wait to go school again.banar th isuk bh ku paluk ne durg ne.so last weeks aku on duty di plabuhan muara menyambut tourist dtg,bg bunga talur and tau-tau lah cemana.lpas atu rush g tu ke MY&S,ada practice.huhu,tired buii ari atu.udah th tidur skajap,kraja lg bnyk tu.so,friday ane kami perform di indoor,hope ok ja.need polishing ja lg tu.alhamdulilah,sebab suk aku ke skulah,bru th ku dpt blik ne.larap aku ah,bru jua isi cre msa tu,abis tia bh.haha.mana inda calling urg sja.kta peacoo last saturday di skulah mcm konsert ane bh,i was like 'what?kn mati!rugi th ku tu.tp nda apa lah'.so aku missed lg liat wyg with durg cos ada practice.tp,apa yg buat aku mental ah nada bnyk urg dtg ne bh rugi jua tu.nda ja?my result sucks,indeed.mls ku kn mention eh bg sakit ati ja.cilaputs.aite then,away dulu.need to finish kraja lain g.

that day.

2008-11-07T23:10:00.000-08:00

moshi moshi fellows!!apa kabar anda semua?sihat?cukup mkn?cukup tidur?pakai spendet?*enough,enough.semua kn di tanya.melarat ne krg.nda ku confident exam ane ehh.bnr th,pyh~revision pun nda enough.its my fault jua.kn enjoy saja.yday,(7 of nov)time pg dady ada msg aku.he said ptgnya ada dancing practice.so,tepaksa th ku dtg,even i do really want to do my revision on chemistry and history.tp,nvm lah.i still have time.iath udah ia dtg ah,aku terima bad news.big change on family members,we'll lost one.and and,i have to move out next year.oh god,this is the hardest part,L-E-A-V-I-N-G.well,one of my classmate,safwan kn pindah taun dpn ke Malaysia.so,we(classmates) ada plan kn buat something to surprise him.i won't post it right now,tkut krg nda tia jadi.
everytime aku ckp arah bestfriend ku,i cut my hair durg 100% nda pecaya tu sal aku syg rambut*they said that.disebabkan aku sangat2 stress dimlm,i managed to persuade mama jln mlm atu.i want to cut my hair.apanya kaka si anis,buang sial~haha.mcm nada lagi tu isuknya exam bio and chemistry,tapi nda buat revision.nda be umpama ko ane geed.so,msa ne short udah rmbut ah.bila tah panjangnya lagi tu,tunggu saja tia.kununnya tu,lapas aku gunting rambut ah,aku start fresh lagi(mcm bnr) tp nda tia jua menjadi.antam tah eh.aite then,im off to serusop krg.sister bwa shopping*layan sja tia~rezeki jgn di tulak,di push sja.haha apa kan aku ah.faluiiii.bah bah,kamu kamu,pembaca-pembaca blog ku sekalian,beta off dlu yaa.buhbyee

TDQ

2008-11-02T23:47:00.000-08:00

before exam,we had teacher and raya celebration di skulah.i'm involved with drama and fashion show.aku play watak rina,samseng skulah.slahau sulku.stress jua lah msa tu.mana nda,udah tah panas.PA system g bangang2 tu.so,aku and chapp have to configure sendiri lah.so,everything ancur msa tu,thank god ada moe2 and us.she read poem,while kami perform drama.faiz ckp,principal puji kami, high five darling!!dee2,chapp,umi,iyah.kamu memang terbaik.and to dee2,thumbs up darling,bnr2 menghayati skrip bh kau ah,sampai luka kaki mu.len x bisai2,lanjut x ahhh.haha.nanti2 th kita acting g.director kami,teenah and amal!!nice skrip.thank you bg aku role samseng ah,bru ku realize i can act.aite2. muahhs,shayangggggg kamu

currently..

2008-11-02T23:16:00.001-08:00

hai kawan-kawan~*waving.so,bru tah ku te update ne blog ah..very2 hectic nowadays.
so,yday my a year and nine month with him but he didn't greet me.he just sent his regard to me thru si muez*adikku.
wish aku nda pernah jpa ia the first place,nda jua ku mcm ane kn??stuck between guys
this one nda pduli aku,other cinta mati sama aku.
durg bestiee ku mrh arah ku,because mcm i give hope arah ia.aku pun sadar x ahh.
satu pit mee.
they say i couldn't let go of ia,of course i couldn't.honestly,but nanti i have to do this 'MOVE ON' thingy.
oh shitt.
alright2,kita start over dari hari kamis yaa
thursday-maths 2 and bm1.both okay saja 50;50.jgn terlalu mengharap buii.
saturday-bio 2 and geo 1 *both of this bagi ku pyh bnr lah.from the mo ment kna bg paper atu udah th ku bnagang ah.HAHA.kesian kn?
monday-monday sucks,so papernya pun cmatulah.paham2 th sja.
tadi pagi aku dtg ke skulah ah,ia pun ada*sunshine.so,aku jln plahan2 lah spaya ia nda bwa aku becakap.i want to get rid of him.please deehh.it turns out,ia tunggu aku limpasi ia,then ia bwa aku becakaplah
sunshine; priksa kamu?
gee; au
sunshine;payah th??
gee;payah jua lah *dlm ati ku,eh..agatah bah,jgn kacau aku.
sunshine; kami g pyh x ah
gee; au,ndangnya tu,kami tau dpan pun cmatu
sunshine; hee,bh goodluck
gee; thanks
so,ia ke tmpat hot spotnya ah.
ME??mcm biasa lah,go to class
so,tomorrow kami exam physics 2 and bm 2.wish me best of luck ah. x)

broken me

2008-10-22T05:01:00.000-07:00

well,hello.if you read my blog banar2 theres lots of mistakes in english or grammar.right?rushing banar tah udah ku tu.iath lawa ah,tunggang tebalik.haha,kdg2 aku pun nda phm.i'm not perfect*eseh,but thats the fact kn?

nevermind,i really2 need to go now.bye-bye kamu.

reality

2008-10-22T04:45:00.000-07:00

yday was his birthday then i texted him about three pages but there is no reply.oh yeah,now i knew you pull me out of your life.isn't it? nevermind.i don't mind.i have guys who want to be with me*this is true,im not kidding you.so,after school i went straight to the practice,thank god we changed some steps.well,i manage not to think a lot about him yday.soon,i'll get over

lets not get carried away.

today,like usual..practice but only after 5 because lots of them are going to the RTB.so,tomorrow until friday,there no practice for bimp eaga or titian budaya.i'm looking forward to it.i hope,i could the script tomorrow and go practice the script afternoon.

okayh.i've not done my homeworks and revisions.as well as dinner.i could hear my stomach is making noise.so,got to go now.i dun care aout the foods,its just im worried about my exam.pity me,

btw,i saw him tadi,at school.my eternal sunshine*haha,apakn?. and yeah,i was camouflaging,flourishing like flower tadi.he brights my day when he smiles.

whats going on last monday

2008-10-22T04:33:00.000-07:00

alright,im going to make this as simple as possible.
last monday we had our visit to ICC,i think it was not great as i expect to be.so,when i got back the school,i stay there until four.then i my dad call me
dad;hello bih
me;hello,ah?napa?
dad;anu bh,suk kamu ada latihan ne patang sampai mlm

i was like 'what??baie x!' honestly,it not like i hate practice but i just need my revision *dlm ati plg tuu

me;oh,iakh?bh,kul brapa?
dad;tngahari,blek skulah ah
me;oh okay,bye

actually,im tired but nevermind..

think about it

2008-10-13T02:21:00.000-07:00

CASE 1
BERMUDA TRIANGLE
Why must me to be the one who hurt the most??In this life I just need this one thing that is called as happiness. Ever since he left me hanging there I was mourning all the way along. Until, I regained my strength to go on but his shadows keep following me, I keep on thinking of him, is this what we called as love? Love is always described as fascinating, exciting and thrilling but it was only at the beginning*from my experience. Later its start to bitter time by time and then you would forget what the sweet thing of love is.

CASE 2
FROM FIRST TO LAST
I hate to be the last one to know things. It is like I’m not important. I don’t play any role in their lives. Sometimes I would cry because of it. People might say I’m too sensitive but hell yeah I won’t hide my feelings and cried all out myself even though, I used to be that kind of girl until now. At least, I have tried. So I won’t have any regrets in my life.

great escape

2008-10-13T02:11:00.000-07:00

yesterday 12 of October, reminds me of her and old times. Do you know why??Today is her birthday and I would love to hit her with frying pan if I see her on the spot!! But never mind, she is damn not important for me. yesterday we (classmates and friends) went raya together. We rent a bus and pay $5 dollar each person. We went to kupang,serasa,mentiri,mall and tanjong nangka. I could say it was lots of fun as we gather together, never silent. I mean maybe this is the last time for me because maybe I would not be here next year. So make this day as one of my greatest day in my life. Thanks friends. You are the best, you have make my day as great what I planned to be. i can't upload picutres from yesterday because still in my memory card.never mind,i would post all the rest of the pictures later. wait for my update readers!!

eid mubarak

2008-10-13T02:01:00.000-07:00

Raya, things that we always think about when it is raya was food, angpau, openhouses.im not enjoying my raya in this year due to reasons. Yet, I try to think positive. raya means forgiveness, holiday, fun and meeting cousins right?? I miss him*, how’s him? These questions keep on popping into my brain hope he forgave everything that I’ve done. Still I feel guilty. What happen to me actually??huh~ now, back to raya thingy. My weight is exceeding but I manage to take control of it and my weight back to normal, 42. Not really skinny huh? But my friends keep on pushing to eat more, what can I do??I lost my appetite and when I say no, it is still a no. today, October ninth Tuesday, Alai’s birthday. Happy birthday abang alai. wishing you best of luck. I miss you. I supposed to have my dancing practice today but since it was cancelled I stay at home only but hey I can go to fatin’s open house tomorrow*her birthday also. Happy advance birthday darling!!Next Saturday I will go to Science College or Australian chemistry quiz award ceremony. Wish me luck!!got to go now, going to update more later yeah.lots of love, muahssmuahss
Here some of raya pictures

HELLO!

2008-10-01T13:02:00.002-07:00

hello fellows.its been a while my blog inda active,that is because practices and personal business.yeah,you know what i mean.so,i manage to memorize dance steps for seri brunei*alhamdulilah.when i got back from anggerek i know i must do something to my house.so,because of this i'm engaged for the whole two weeks.last but not least,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA PEOPLE!!MAAF ZAHIR AND BATIN.SORRY FOR ANY MISTAKES THAT I HAVE DONE.HAVE FUN x)

MALL ohh

2008-09-21T00:59:00.001-07:00

baby qeelah and kaka biby

biby and muya

days at berakas

2008-09-21T00:33:00.000-07:00

after practice about 10pm,we went to jln2 at serusop.let the pictures do the talking =)

oh lollipop

2008-09-16T05:07:00.000-07:00

actually,i'm craving for a lollipop right now*skadar..

this holiday

2008-09-16T04:41:00.001-07:00

my dad informed me that this holiday i would have my dancing paractice at berakas.i went 'what??during ramadan?this is ridiculous.moreover i have to stay at Berakas, so i'm not sure if my blog would be active during this holiday. 10.oo pm.CSI is so on*i couldn't wait!!

what happened in sekolah tadi

2008-09-16T04:13:00.000-07:00

today i went to school, biasalah last day schooling. i brought chocolate with me to the school *we'll,mc x ahh.so,time period maths erah and me curi2 eat chocolate ah.shh~ .plus plus, chap brought the cube,so all of us trying to solve it.noboby manage to solve the cube. then,ezzah emerge and offer herself and give a try.well,she manage to solve it and we all goes 'WOW!! pandai jua ko zah,ajar kami eh.so,she gave us the formula *reeyah said "eh,pyh lagi ane ne drpd physics"haha. all of us take notes on it but i forgot sudah how to do it.nvm,just wanna sy "happy hols people"